fucking hate it

i have to pee right now but don't want to walk like 30 fucking feet to go inside and pee where a stupid dog is going to bark continually and then i'm going to get glares from both in laws. then without saying a word if i'm lucky, i'd get to come back out to this trailer. and then it'd happen again when i gotta pee. and say you want a glass of water? gotta go inside. what about cooked food? gotta go inside. i don't know what to do, i fucking hate my life. can't do ANYTHING about it. so here we go, here's the list of things i hate about this place:
-getting screamed at for not shutting cubboards when i literally FORGOT, i didn't do it to piss her off.
-being treated like a slave: like i have to make dinner to eat any (even though that wasn't the original agreement)
-never knowing when they are serious and when they aren't
-feeling like even though i use nothing of theirs but 3 fucking lights, internet (but with MY wireless box), occationally a pepsi, coffee, and their bathroom, i'm a fucking piece of shit and need to pay or slave for it even though THEY were the ones who offered to let us stay here.
-duke: no matter what this fucking idiot dog barks for like 3 minutes straight if we come in the house
-jokes (that AREN'T really jokes) at dinner...when we actually get invited to dinner
-the coffee spoon: getting yelled at when i take it by accident 'cause not every fucking family leaves the spoon for everyone on their counter
-being told that no matter what we do with the trailer, it's wrong. and we need "help" and if we WANTED to have running water, they ASSUME that they'll have to do something.
-dogs ALWAYS. when sister in law comes over, there is at least 2 usually 3 jumping on me, trying to lick me and sit on me
-the WHOLE family lives here. and the only person who is treated like a person is amie.
-we're a piece of shit 'cause we aren't like them
-we have 2 cars out front 'cause theirs 2 of us and we like to be able to separate once in awhile. i KNOW this annoys them even though they have a fucking parking lot usually.
-i can't have stuff in the bathroom really
-there are 2 doors in the bathroom, one doesn't lock and on the other side, my father in law.
-i can't shave in their shower for fear i'll get yelled at for leaving hair, let alone my fucking curly head hair.
-even the fucking toilet makes noise.
-being ignored by my father in law when i did nothing wrong.
-my cat gets barked at constantly if seen
i'm sure there are more. but for now, since i have to talk to them in a wapin' 6 minutes, i'll be done. but i seriously haven't felt this shitty since i was with the ex that ruined my life. the worst part is, my husband and i are doing FINE except for being constantly depressed because of all this and not being able to find jobs. and we have fun still 'cause we have good friends. but at the end of the night, you know you have to come home to this so it kills the smile on the ride home. and we don't really listen to music anymore. that's ANOTHER sign we're depressed.