what the fuck love is

love is one sided.
it can be two sided,
but just 'cause you love someone doesn't mean they love you back.
love is the ultimate vulnerability.
it's believing in your heart that whether or not the other person returns your love,
you undoubtingly adore them.

it's an interesting thing.
we fall for the idea of it all the time...
each and every one of us.

but when it comes down to it, you're not just alone in life,
but you're alone in loving people deeply, as well.

they could die.
they could love someone else.
they could be a user and a whore.
or they could be just really broken already.

that doesn't mean you can't love them, but
it certainly doesn't mean they have to or will love you back.

and that's why we all get to broken when the story is over.
because truly, all along, it was one-sided.
whether or not it really was,
it was.
because again, it doesn't really matter whether or not the other person loves you or not
you love them. infact, adore them. right?
and even if you're the one that's being loved and doesn't love the same way back...
it's the same picture, just backwards.

it's heart breaking.
you feel like you can't breathe.
you feel like you literally have no value on the planet.
you feel like there couldn't be a person out there who would want to invest even one minute in your soul.
you feel like compliments are like food stamps are just terrible attempts to make you feel better.
you feel like sad songs aren't sad enough.

but the truth is, it gets better.
separation.
space.
time; just letting the hands spin.
fresh air.

tomorrow is a new day. and then there's another one after that.
sure, we don't know if we are going to live
nor do we know if those we love will live...
but love deeply without fear because each day comes whether you want it to or not.
and pain eventually goes away.

there is no one who can take away all your happiness.
you just have to find those little things that few value as much as you do.